Like the majority of the world, I spent the last 2 days soaking up as much Hamilton on Disney+ as I possible could. This show means a lot to many people and can mean different things to people as well. For some, it's just a beautiful work of art, for others it was life-changing. Sometimes it's hard for me to truly put into words the power that this show has and the real emotional response that it gives me.

Oh wait... that's not my name. But the sentiment remains the same. For the first time in 36 years, I feel as though I've fully embraced the person that I want to be. I've mentioned before that I enjoy my life, but it's more than that now. Writing this book, as emotional as it's been, is allowing me to tap into things about myself that I'd never really thought about before... or at least haven't thought about for a while. 2 years ago I started my new life and it's fully taken me this entire time to come into my own.

Music has the power to heal, the power to move us, the power to reveal things about ourselves that we've never realized before. I've always felt a strong connection to music from a very early age, singing and dancing along to Disney movies. As I got older, I realized that the music I listened to would have a profound affect on me. Songs that made me cry or smile or yell or dance around in celebration. Music to calm me down when frustrated or lift me up when sad. I used to tell people that you could tell my mood by the music that I was listening to.

It's been 3 months since I last wrote about loneliness and as much as I'd like to say it's gotten easier, the truth is... it's gotten so much worse.

A month ago I had a health scare and it forced me to really make some drastic changes in the way I eat. They always say the first 30 days are the hardest in any kind of dietary or exercise regime and I can say for a fact, that it's 100% true. I've had many attempts at diets and exercise programs over the years. So many in fact that I can't even name them all. It was always for vanity reasons... I wanted to be thinner. That was it. I wanted to be skinny and, for that reason, nothing ever really stuck for long.